Television Interview? Really???

Caleb,

I got a call on Thursday from Dawn Tongish at KDAF-33. She'd heard about our journey with you and the blog. She came out this morning to do an interview to get more information on how things are going. Right now, it looks like the interview will air tonight. She's going to get back with me to let me know for sure when it will air.

We couldn't have done this on our own. God's love and strength sustains us through the most difficult time in our lives. We've opened ourselves up for the world to see. What a humbling experience. It's been a comfort knowing that what we're doing is helping others in some way. That's one of the things we wanted to be able to do through this blog -- help others. Even if it's just providing words of comfort when they are having trouble, or lifting them up in prayer as they go through a difficult trial, or giving them strength because of the strength we have been given through God -- it's all so very worth it.

I pray that this interview will impart strength to others. I want to let people see God's light shining inside of us and always know that God is in control. No matter the circumstances people may be facing, God is still on the throne. He knows what He's doing. He has a purpose and a plan that will benefit them.

I'm so thankful that you found God's purpose and plan for your life at such a young age. Your love for God was apparent in everything you did. From your earliest moments, you loved to listen to worship music and hear God's word read to you. We didn't get to have you around as much as we wanted, but we truly loved every minute we got to have with you.

Caleb, you were such an inspiration to us. Your light, love, courage, and giving nature are the things I continue to hold onto during my darkest moments. When I am weak, hurting and in pain, I think of your strength. You rarely complained about the debilitating pain you were in, so why should I complain about my pain. It is nothing compared to what you endured. You still encourage me on a daily basis. You were truly my miracle child. I'll never forget you and will love you to infinity and beyond.

When I think of you, I smile. I remember so many of the fun things we did together. Trips to Going Bonkers were a blast. Sliding down those huge slides and hearing you scream in delight still make me smile. I remember you asking so many times to go back, but you weren't physically capable of handling the trip or the play equipment. I wish we could have taken you one last time.

I wish we'd taken more family pictures. I have so many memories of you that are captured on camera forever. Watching you eat your first waffle, that was bigger than your head, was so funny. The first time you got to play in the snow. Your first amusement park ride with Kendra. Your dedication at church. Your finalization day when you were less than 6 months old. Holding & rocking you to sleep. Singing to you. The memories never stop. I am flooded with thoughts of you. You truly are my hero. There is no one I could have imagined loving more. I am so thankful that you were a part of our lives for the time we had you.

I was so looking forward to having pictures done in the bluebonnets again this year. We had so much fun when Dawn & Connor were here for it. It was so windy that day. Do you remember? I'll miss our trips to the Zoo. It just won't be the same without you.

I love you so very much and always will. I wanted you to know love like you'd never known before. But my love pales in comparison to the love of God. Now, you know love more fully than I could imagine.

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I long for the day when we see each other again, but know that I must keep living my life here. Keep watching over us and loving us. I hope you are having a wonderful time learning all about the things of Heaven. You make sure you tell Jesus that I want a purple mansion. Help decorate it if you can.

I love you, sweet Caleb.
Mommy